Good bye 2015. You were hopeful but not goal reaching.
Welcome 2016. Be realistic.
I have been 8 years and 6 months away from home. It was never easy. My heart breaks. I miss my parents, my siblings, my relatives and my friends back home. This journey was not easy for me. And I know why.
The first four years of my life here was fine. I just need to struggle with the weather and language. The rest are all ok. The next four was an everyday decision of wearing a smile. I always choose the positive way of looking at it. But sometimes, it is getting into my nerves. I break-down when I am alone. Atleast the old me is still here.
The good part of my journey here is my husband. Without him, there is no reason for me to leave home. We were blessed with two wonderful children.
We built a house. It has been two years and 3 months now. We are still not moved-in. It is frustrating but I need to accept it. There are things that I cannot change on my own, therefore, I just need to have the heart to accept it. That is easier said than done. On the other hand, I decided to focus on the things that I can change on my own. For example, searching and finding a job. Let us see what is in store for me. It will "AGAIN" be uneasy, because of the language barrier. But I guess, that will not stop me to find one.
I have been so organize since childhood. I mean, organize in a way that I know what I want, I wrote it in my diary and I will do everything to achieve this goal. The good thing is, I am a GOD-fearing person. Therefore, I know that I may set my goals without breaking God's laws. I stopped being organized when I reached 25. I decided to go with the flow. But still walking with God's guidance. I ended on this journey. It has been 13 years now. I think, I need to go back to that old attitude of writing my goals in my diary and trying to reach it. Will this year be different? Let's wait and see.
